bohemian, Books, docmentary, inspiration

No Beginning and no End

Into the Universe with Stephen Hawking is a documentary on Netflix told in his “voice” which is computer generated, he uses the muscles in his cheek to communicate because due to his ALS he can no longer walk or speak, however using his magnificent brainpower helps keep the disease at bay (its a muscle atrophy situation). It was nice to learn more about his personal life. Did you know he says the big bang isn’t just god but that universes and planets solar systems are constantly spontaneously being created – for the universe has no beginning or end. As I sit here typing there are planets blooming in the sky like night flowers and while we sleep galaxies are burning up and suns are dying stars. Sometimes makes me think you could never doubt a higher power for science is almost as unknowable as gods and goddesses.
Of course if you see that other doc on netflix ‘The Unbelievers’ (which has scientists Richard Dawkins and Lawrence Krauss) its difficult to believe in any one religion and completely see that Darwin’s theory of evolution can bring us in to a new age of enlightenment that can still be filled with love and compassion for our fellow earthlings. I watch these docs as Im drawing or working on freelance projects so I know I’m missing info. I know from experience…I watched all of madmen this way and when I saw an episode in person I realized there were nuances and scenes that are pretty integral haha I watch tv like its a radio.

Even more unrelated I just got through the book by Damien Echols and Lorri Davis – Yours for Eternity: A Love Story on Death Row. Damien is a west memphis three member who was wrongfully accused of murder and sentenced to death ( all in Arkansas) and imprisoned for 18 years during which time Lorri and he met and got married and now they live happily together in Salem, Ma. never to return south. But this book is their prison love letters. They are really beautiful and poetic and have a lot of reference to Magik which D practices through Wicca. And which seemed to have helped him remain unbroken through his ordeal. Now I have got to read his memoir Life after Death which is not at my library like Yours for Eternity was. It is $11 in kindle store which is too hard to swing now, I will wait Im sure it will show up at the library someday. I have to say the love letters made me cry and get a bit worked up so I had to skip a few and see the end often, to make sure he gets out. Also I watched Paradise lost the three part HBO docs and I started Devils Knot which is a movie about the whole thing starring Reese Whiterspoon- also on netflix, but i stopped 20 mins in I was too annoyed at the whole ignorance and plain silliness and its just too awful. (the true story, not he movie or anything, the cinematography and compositional shots as well as lighting was very nicely done) So thats my “religious” question mark post today. Also something sweet I read in the book was in Kabbalah (btw happy Rosh Hashanah if you celebrate it!) it is believed that before we are born one spirit exists and it is split in two going one half in to a girl and the other half boy and when you meet you are real soul mates in every sense. Its a pretty thought right?


activities, artwork

Interacting with Humans

conventionalThe above quote is by Bertrand Russell, illustrated my my fabric marker and a necklace I broke by accident.  My creative soul and sense of humor gets misunderstood often. I am beggining to understand that most arguments are because of what the other person is feeling and not me, I just have to keep that in mind that the social battles on this earth are usually internal. I wish I could be more ordinary sometimes. Or at least be simpler and zen. I have my own agenda I want to follow and I cant be coerced into convention, unless I can make that stretch for a loved one. Art is a jealous mistress and I and obsessed with working on my art lately. I have also taken up weekly yoga and zumba classes. So I am getting things done. True happiness is about productivity, pleasure and purpose. I have a defined purpose right now and I am being productive but I have to make sure to carve out time for pleasure (ew lets say fun, pleasure sounds too steamy) Maybe I will go to the library.  LOL I wish that sounded less nerdy. I need to stop reading true crime books but I can’t I just finished “One Last Kiss: The True Story of a Minister’s Bodyguard, His Beautiful Mistress, and a Brutal Triple Homicide” by Michael W. Cuneo. Exquisitely written super creepy story about Joyce Meyer’s former head of security and his secret life and homicides of his family. I would love to solve mysteries but I never figure things out till its revealed in novels. OK I’m headed to yoga now have a fantastic weekend!!

branding, creative industry, design industry, graphic design, web design

3 steps to Creating your Online Portfolio – Zombie Style have gone through so many online portfolios. Mostly they have been pretty gross. The fault of that is mine. In my youthful insouciance I would rather throw ca$h at the problem I needed solved. I didn’t give much thought to it I just wanted to impulsively fix it! start it! begin my career! my life! showcase my work! So I pay for hosting and domain and then hmm…not much. You see there needs to be a game plan, whenever you want to put effort into something including your hard earned dollar. The truth is your can’t throw money at the “problem” you have to think and be aware of what a course of action is. There are some things I learned the hard way and now I will give my unsolicited advice out to you in the form of a portfolio zombie:

Create the Flesh
hahaha you knew this was coming (the zombie apocalypse!) Maybe your a new graduate, or have been working for a while and have not updated the ‘folio you used to get hired. Either way before even browsing the sites you need the work. Before you worry over your logo, branding, costs, biz cards…you need to display your body of work in an appealing logical easy to comprehend way. This is the flesh of the portfolio the whole point of it all. So it needs to look good. I know there are traditionally 10-20 pieces in one back in the olden days. But now with the WORLDWIDEWEB there aren’t many limits so just break it up into categories, easy comprehensible categories that will lead your admirers to where they want to go. These finished pieces need to be web ready jpegs for most images/photos and pngs for vectors. Your skin and flesh would just be a puddle if not for…

Prop up the Bones
Find an anatomically correct service site/ host that is clean and simple. With that blank canvas feeling (I prefer white background to black). Your body of work should stand out and just be …..existing. There is your work, your bio, contact info, and social media with tabs or links to these pages. Also your logo and branding with color scheme clean throughout. Some great portfolio site that are mostly free are : cargo collective, carbonmade, wordpress, wix, squarespace, and behance. I like them all they are all equally perfect and beautiful, with similar designs and pricing lol so its hard to choose. For now you are finding, searching, looking…. do not commit to anything yet.Every site listed has a free trial so put all your work up and see it, feel how it represents your body of work.

Its Alive!!
Just like any real pet zombie or baby, you have to maintain this thing. Its only useful when it is worked on a few times a month through updating projects, news, and  posting about it all thru your social media too.

So what does a good portfolio look like? Who is a celebrity visual commercial artist? IMHO its Jillian Tamaki, Julia Denos, David Mckenney and Joy Cho there are so many more. When you look at these artists portfolios the content is huge. There are certainly not a few pieces there are a ton, the user clicks around and eventually you get to something that really strikes your fancy, you also get a glimpse of personality. I’m sorry, I know its a lot more difficult than you may have imagined. However, it must be done to be seen as a professional and for yourself. Do this to showcase your beautiful work, even if you love your job, or don’t want freelance projects at this time. It’s nice to keep a pretty collection all in one easy spot. I think the best way to do i is trial periods, just last night I finished my new online portfolio. I will say cargo collective is preferable to carbonmade, becasue you can uploade up to 100mb and on carbonmade its 5 projects only, so if you are like me and have a lot of category (and no money to keep throwing at this online folio) cargo is better and there are way more templates to choose from, and a header option so you can make it prettier and more customized all for free! I still have a few tweaks to do I kinda love hate it right now and so far its free for up to five projects so I’m just debating. Of course the next step is your print portfolio. Everyone needs both

:D yay!!

activities, artists, creative entrepreneur, creative industry, design industry, etsy, graphic design, hand drawn type, weekend

What Would Benjamin Franklin Do


Ben Franklin is pretty inspiring. He made a serious life schedule (see above). Did you ever read his memoir (that one is free on kindle) its very good, he was kinda saucy, like the Ben in the office episode hahah. I want to make one too for this year. I got the above image from Jessica Hische the rockstar of the communicative arts world. You should see her scheduled she posted (under thoughts on her website) it is sick and twisted and amazing. I would love to live her life for a day, she did the opening credit illustrations in Moonrise kingdom! Shes like “when Wes called me…” meaning Wes Anderson. Dude.

The thing is I remember being a morning person. the amazing possibility of the early light coming through the windows when I awakened. My lil sis is going to be a vet and she says the birds sing the most in the mornings just because they want to spread the word that ” we made it throughout the night! we are alive and we can sing!” I think of that on my way to the train, a mist all the twitters. I have a hard commute – a 12 hour day. That is no excuse to use all 14-16 hours a day I am awake to the fullest.

When it is so hard to wake up I wish I could somehow wake up earlier and work towards my real dreams. I want to wake up with the birds and the sunrise and workout, draw and make a plan of attack for the day. I wish I could be as simply grateful as the animal world and appreciate that simply I have the chance to live another day. I have to say winter is my toughest season and morning is my toughest hours. I guess now that I seem to have focused on the negatives it would be better to be POSITIVE. Try to be positive bunnies, every bad sad thought causes a deeper and deeper rut in your brain that gets harder and harder to fill.

I want to do Zumba, finish my secret project, scan all my family albums and archive them and get my Etsy store going again, all while working that 9-5 (9-6?!?!) design job that I love. Dwell in possibility. This year I’m going to do it. It will happen. If not now when?

activities, artwork, creative industry, new jersey, secret project, wedding

Now there is no more loneliness


Hello lovers, This passion tea lemonade is sponsored by my gift card I got for my bday. At Starbucks… i stick to the teas there. Yesterday I spent all day with one of my BFFs Yaeko. Shes getting married so it was fun to hunt for a wedding band and wedding ideas at the mall. Feels very back to school suburban which I love to get a taste of at least once a year. This early September weather always makes me so nostalgic, I feel like Im already missing the scent of summer and all the things that should have been in that time. I also have that vestigial back to school excitement even though it has been centuries (literally because I am in fact a vampire) since I have gone to school. The weather is still gorgeous here but im spending the rest of my weekend indoors working on my serious top secret project. Its back on now that I’m back from vacation…this is the toughest part of my project and i have been procrastinating because I have to draw boys now. Serious fashion illustrators like myself sometimes have a preference one way or the other, I’m a serious lover of the girl fashion illustration, boys are less inspiring to draw for me. So I had to look for a model I would be happy about and I found him : Bradley Soileau from three of Lana Del Rey’s music videos. I love her and I love this guy he is beautiful. Day with Yaeko:

IMG_20140830_125403 IMG_20140830_125440 CAM00124 CAM00129 CAM00137Speaking of beautiful men and September, tomorrow is my second year anniversary being married to my own heartthrob. My wedding was featured on intimate weddings blog. Here in the tri-state small wedding are unusual, even stranger is a just family wedding like we did. See our post HERE. I put some pretty wedding inspirations together. I love invitations and the stationery around events. Its the most exciting aspect of weddings to a graphic designer I think and the photography has to be sweet too. Yesterday Yaeko and I were going over her list of what her wedding needs to be. I suggested …pick three words that you want your wedding to be, and stick to it. Here is a collage of a Romantic, Intimate and Dreamy wedding:


There is a beautiful prayer by the Apache that I love so much, we put it in our ceremony:

The Apache Wedding Prayer

Now you will feel no rain, For each of you will be shelter to the other. Now you will feel no cold, For each of you will be warmth to the other. Now there is no more loneliness, For each of you will be companion to the other. Now you are two bodies, But there is one life before you. Go now to your dwelling place, To enter into the days of your togetherness. And may your days be good and long upon the earth.

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activities, travel, vacation

Every Year – Explore Somewhere New


Neuschwanstein Castle aka Cinderella Castle aka the swan lake castle

Neuschwanstein Castle aka Cinderella Castle aka the swan lake castle

121694713Grüss Gott (southern German for hello!!!)  I am back from Deutschland!! Its been a while, its hard coming back to the real world and life. This trip was our (husb + me) third world travel together and there are many more to come. This is what our focus is: seeing the world and growing in love and saving cash for the next trip. Its a slightly transient existence for now but so worth it when we leave on each trip. Germany was incredible, beautiful we traveled the romantic strasse and saw real medieval cities and the original Cinderella swan castle and Berlin, Frankfurt, Munich. I visited with some family and it didn’t even rain much! We met incredible people and made some lifelong friends on out travel tour. I plan on writing an extensive experience review someday, for now I need to do some laundry, groceries shopping and begrudgingly get back in to planet earth’s rotation. Its hard though, I really seriously could travel forever, its nice to be home and relax but I miss being on the road and eating incredible meat and potatoes German food. I gained 5 proud pounds hahaha we gorged, I had several pastries and Eis (gelato) everyday. I bought a good amount of candy/provisions to bring home, its declining rapidly. I miss it! Next trip Spain! And I wont be planning it until a few months in from now. I have to get back to the career and the Etsy shop now, it will be Fall and cozy soon and I have beautiful art I want to share with the world.

dont fence me in

bloggers, creative entrepreneur, design industry

Favorite Blogs Part 1



Face/Fashion Inspired by Hey Natalie Jean in this sketch

There are a good amount of things I am obsessed with.But this blog that I read almost everyday feeds my soul. It all started when I read Stephanie Nielson’s book Heaven is Here I read about her in Oprah then saw the book in the library. This happened about 4 years ago, I was at a point in my life where I was extremely vulnerable to influences and people seeming to live happy lives. I loved her book and started to read her blog. Something about it all was so strange and otherworldly to me. I have never been in contact with young woman my age who were very religious and interested in traditional roles (housewife and mothers) for women. If anything I got mixed message, not that its bad, not even that I must be feminist just that those times are very much over. To be honest most couples I know are still unmarried and barely anyone has children. I’m 27 now so maybe that means we are all heading there? But truthfully marriage, children, staying at home its something older generations seemed to abhor because they felt they deserved the choice to decide between work and home and choosing home was a loss of power to the man, and the man doesn’t pay you equally at work anyway, an oppressive world (we still don’t get paid equally now anyway). So today every family has two working parents. And these families barely get by.. basically the man and wife are earning what the man of the house earned for his whole family in the olden days (I’m referring to the baby boomers and the generation before, I am part of Generation Y because I was born after 1980) So anyway I don’t mean to be a downer but being equal is obviously difficult to maintain. One person is always a little bit lazier in one way or another. I don’t think we really value marriage and children as much as we used to, probably from everyones parents divorcing? Its ok, I mean I think the world has changed in some ways better in some ways worse… I just mean those “golden” days where the women were submissive but sassy and the men were cheerful, strong and hard working..those times exist on these Mormon mommy blogs and I really really enjoy reading them. Its not stepford wife exactly, I mean these are hip kids doing artsy city-centric organic cool stuff just with babies, marriage and Mormonism and no alcohol oh or coffee (in my sketch shes drinking herbal tea lol. Its fascinating,

These blogs opened my heart and let sunshine in. I can dip into these happy happy worlds for a few seconds online and imagine what it would be like like to have your greatest worries be just about the home, the husband and babies.Here are my go-tos:


Hey Natalie Jean

The Daybook



NieNie Dialogues


Love Taza

Love Taza Valentine


So I typed in Mormon mommy blogs to see if I could find some more and I saw the salon article and got hooked on several more lives. Most of these girls have degrees from accredited colleges, there smart, artistic, fashion savvy and originals with extreme know how on creating an empire of family lil ol me blog fun that evolved into media exclusive, book deals, millions of dollars. I think some people would read these blogs and think they are anti feminist and archaic maybe, definitely when you look at GOMI (which I do all the time!very funny sometimes) you get the impression that this constant navel gazing is annoying and these women are bored and need something else to “fill up their time.” But i will say now I see through all those impressions. I truthfully just feel JEALOUS! Hahahahah imagine your so bored and have every monetary need met by the breadwinner, you have pretty children that you enjoy taking care of and you honestly want and plan to have more and you have a little spare time to write insightful, poignant and sometimes silly fun blog posts everyday and instagram and tweet the lighthearted family filled life you lead? Seems amazing seems perfect. That what these blogs do extra well, you sometimes really believe it could be yours. And if your extra vulnerable you may even convert lol, I know I was creepily obsessed with at least going to Provo and having a Sweet Tooth Fairy cupcake. But I guess I know converting won’t give me this rosy colored glasses life. I would still be me, dark and mysterious inside and very distrustful of anything organized hhahaha plus I’m married to another not so religious type. Oh, and I still have never met a mormon person! I plan to write in depth about these favorite blogs of mine someday soon. If your feeling low click one of these links!